bleh. the friday i've been looking forward to since wednesday. and it hasn't officially began yet *sigh* i'm going to a show tonight with lee and meghan. and i'm hoping the bands will rock out. and we'll have great fun. or at least i'm hoping. and tomorrow is going to be so great. i just know it. but until they come to pick me up. and until tomorrow. and until i just. blah. sleep.
Oh well, you've got me under your spell
and I don't think that I'm kidding around.
I don't think I can forget you now.
I once sat up on my roof and examined the planning of my town.
I saw the structured grid and pavement cutting through grass
and I remembered the cold of winter running up the legs of my pants.
I picked the nicest lawn and imagined the two of us
rolling around down along the ground.
I saw myself touch your face and I noticed jets begin to race above our heads.
But I pinched my arm and remembered how much you hate me.
I remembered the fact that I can't see what you need
and I'm too stupid to be aware of the beauty that you give this place
and how shitty this town would seem without you in it.
When you aren't around I let the shades fall down to shut out
all the sun's light and make myself feel all right.
What am I doing with my life?
Remember that the only things we need sometimes
are chilly nights and warmer thighs, 'cause there's nothing like being held.
i'm kind of debating going to tremors or dominics. uhmm. or just doing something completely insane. or just maybe being a bratt and whine about wherever we're going. or will i just be happy once they get here. i'm sure i will *sigh*